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could you please tell me..the truth.
deep down inside...what is actually there?
deep in your heart...what actually you want?
before you tell me anything... sit down, calm down and be wise...
think carefully...rationally...
think bout your parents...your family is your priority...
after that..tell me whats actually there in your heart..
whats in your mind...

save me...

I feel my wings have broken in your hands 
I feel the words unspoken inside 

When they pull you under 
And I would give you anything you want 
Well all I wanted 
All my dreams have fallen down 
Crawling around somebody save me 
And two warm hands break right through me 
Somebody save me 
I don't care how you do it 
Just stay 
Stay 
Come on 
I've been waiting for you 

I see the world has folded in your heart 
I feel the waves crash down inside 

And they pull me under 
I would give you anything you want 
Well all I wanted 
And all my dreams have fallen down 
Crawling around somebody save me 
And two warm hands break right through me 
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it 
Just stay 
Stay 
Come on 
I've been waiting for you 

And all my dreams are on the ground 

Crawling around somebody save me 
And two warm hands break right through me 
Somebody save me 
I don't care how you do it 
Just save me 

I've made this whole world shine for 
Just stay 
Stay 
Come on 
I'm still waiting for you

how should i say...

i dont even know how to say it out..
its all messed up. i didnt meant to be rude or ungrateful to them...
but..shouldnt i be given a chance to choose for myself??
sume yg aku buat slme ni (walopon x ckup) sume utk mama papa...
aku dh xleh nk pk skarang...aku takut dgn khidupan aku sndri..
patut ke aku rse menyesal hdup??? aku kcwa sgt2 kot skrg ni...
kecewa tp xleh buat ape2..kcewa tp trpaksa pendam....
aku xnk pasrah mcm ni...
aku tetap akn be with him..no matter what...
im sorry mama...im sorry papa
im sorry 'mna'....
=( sedih.pedih....