~dlm hati ni~

ku pikir2...
ku pikir2...
lelah..........

cmne eh aku nk explain prsaan aku nie.aku sndri pon x tau ape sbnrnye yg ade dlm hti aku nie.
aku sedih.
aku kecewa.
aku malu.
aku marah.
aku geram.
aku sayang.
aku pilu.
sayu.
rindu.
keliru.
kacau.
serabut.

ape lg yg melibatkan perasaan...sume  ade kot.
trlalu byk sbb utk aku berperasaan cmni.
tp aku x tau nk luah cmne.
aku cume nk lepaskan sume tu.
aku nk luahkn rasa syukur je ke hadrat Ilahi.
yg sntiasa beri aku kasih sygNya,
rahmatNya,
nikmatNya,
rezkiNya,
dan segala yg telah dikurniakan kepada aku selama ini.
dan yg akan dikurniakan kepada aku akn datang.

TERIMA KASIH TUHAN......

whats wrong....

b..why r u like that? is there anything that bothers u?
i thought we promised to share everything...
why b..tell me...

~............~

ape aku patut fkr?
ape aku patut buat?
ape....aku dh xtau nk buat ape...
aku dh xtau nk fkr ape...
aku akn ikut je flow ni...

-my decision-

aku dh wat keputusan...dan aku harap ia yang terbaik utk kami...
aku akan tetap be with him, no matter what happens...i will be with him.
we need each other - so why do we have to break up?!
no!!!akux mahu ditinggalkan dn akuxmhu meninggalkan dia....
luv u hubby!!!

frustrated

damn it... after what we've gone through...i have to leave him.
its unfair!!!not juz to him, also to me...
pe yg aku buat utk diri aku?aku syg kn dia bkn skdr utk ade couple cm org len...
i need him juz as he needs me....we need each other!!
what should i do now?knowing the truth really hurts me...i dont want to hurt him...
love is always unfair to people..why???
im giving him a day off - what the heck? a day off!? im coward...
tell me, what should i tell him? damn it!!

okay...

how about ignore everything that i've heard...

and continue to him as usual....

is that oaky???

hurmmm....

dont want to care...
dont want to mind....
dont to bother.....

can i do that???

i juz want to love him sincerely...
love him with all i have...
love him forever....

i love you,hubby!!!!
sorry for giving you a day off...
will not do it again...
dont let me go.....cuz i wont let go off your hand...
forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-juz a welcome note-

hi everyone...
welcome to my life/world..

it takes me ages to decide to have my own blog...
why?cuz im such a lazy person to type all the things in side my head...
its juz not me..but now, aftr facing some problems - need a place to throw them away -
i decided to have my own blog.....
hopefully i can, at least, feel a bit of peace in side me...
n i really hope to get some advice from others...
so, dis is it...i'll make use of this blog to share my thoughts...

all the putus fius people out there...lets be friend..=)